Actually it's 7-12, but that doesn't make any sense. I went in to the gym today for the weigh in and have lost 7lbs in 12 days! Not too shabs! I still have no idea where that puts me in the overall competition, but I'm happy with having 7lbs less of jiggle!
I keep having to remind myself that it's not over though. That last weigh in wasn't the finish line. I am NOT on maintenance yet! Not even close. I even have a 5k this weekend, so I need to be careful what I put in my body. Granted I have been walking a 5k almost daily with my neighbor, so I'm fairly used to it. At least I hope! I haven't run at all this week so it should be interesting to see if I can run at all on Sunday. At least I'll be running with 7lbs less of me :)
Friday, March 30, 2012
Thursday, March 29, 2012
Getting So Close!
We are leaving for Texas in 13 days. Holycowdung. It is SO close to being here and yet I am still 6 freaking pounds away from my goal for the trip! One minute I'm all "6? Oh I can do that in 2 weeks' and then the next minute I'm like '6! That's a LOT to lose in 2 weeks!' Something may be wrong with my brain... I am going to start packing today though. It's still very slightly chilly here and blasted hot there so I won't be missing anything I pack in the next few days. And I'll feel better having it out of the way. Annnd packing is probably my favorite part of any trip. I pack, unpack, and repack about 8 million times before we go anywhere! My husband always just lets me be in charge of packing for everyone, because he knows I'll take everything out of his suitcase anyway! When we go to Texas for Christmas the past few years I've been the one to pack the car too. It's like a 3D version of Tetris for me and I love it! I know, I'm a weirdo. It's cool.
Tomorrow is my last weigh in for the Biggest Loser contest at the gym! I really feel like I'm going to do well. Maybe not win the $500, but will be proud of myself! I'm still super glad I had this week to work on it. I've walked a 5K+ every day but Sunday, and on Sunday I danced for an hour. Basically everyday this week I've burnt 450+ calories more than I ate! Hopefully that will push my through tomorrow!!
Tomorrow is my last weigh in for the Biggest Loser contest at the gym! I really feel like I'm going to do well. Maybe not win the $500, but will be proud of myself! I'm still super glad I had this week to work on it. I've walked a 5K+ every day but Sunday, and on Sunday I danced for an hour. Basically everyday this week I've burnt 450+ calories more than I ate! Hopefully that will push my through tomorrow!!
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
Tuesday's Scale Tip
Yes, I did weigh in yesterday. No, it was not a holly jolly celebration. I DID lose 1lbs, which should be very satisfying, but it definitely means I won't hit 40 by the 11th. I keep trying to reassure myself that it's great and anything downward on my weight chart (thank you Livestrong app!) is a good thing! And I'm right. It is a good thing. I'm just ready to be further down the road I guess.
On a brighter note, there has been a LOT of outdoor walking going on! I definitely don't hate the treadmill, but am so thankful for this wonderful weather lately. I still have to wear long sleeves for the most part, but it's not biting cold! I do need to hit the gym this week before my last Biggest Loser weigh in on Friday. I was so happy to not have to weigh in on Monday! I would have not lost anything. Hopefully with a couple more walks, and maybe a run tonight, Friday will make me be the big winner :) I have no idea where I stand in the contest, because they write down your weight and percentage lost on a yellow card and then stick it in a box. There is no chart or way to gauge where you are in comparison to the other ladies! I hate that! I will say that when I was cruising through the "C"s I saw at least 2 women had already dropped out. You are only allowed to miss one week, and some have already missed more than that so they are disqualified. I was a week late signing up, so I can not miss this week! I do hope they reveal where everyone 'placed' at the end. I would like to see how close I was if I don't win. I really am not expecting to win either. And this isn't like an Oscar speech where the winner gets up there and acts all flustered and said she had no idea!! I honestly have no idea where I stand or how many women are even left! I guess we will see next week. Now cross your fingers, rain dance, chant, whatever it is you do for luck for me to post a big number this week :)
On a brighter note, there has been a LOT of outdoor walking going on! I definitely don't hate the treadmill, but am so thankful for this wonderful weather lately. I still have to wear long sleeves for the most part, but it's not biting cold! I do need to hit the gym this week before my last Biggest Loser weigh in on Friday. I was so happy to not have to weigh in on Monday! I would have not lost anything. Hopefully with a couple more walks, and maybe a run tonight, Friday will make me be the big winner :) I have no idea where I stand in the contest, because they write down your weight and percentage lost on a yellow card and then stick it in a box. There is no chart or way to gauge where you are in comparison to the other ladies! I hate that! I will say that when I was cruising through the "C"s I saw at least 2 women had already dropped out. You are only allowed to miss one week, and some have already missed more than that so they are disqualified. I was a week late signing up, so I can not miss this week! I do hope they reveal where everyone 'placed' at the end. I would like to see how close I was if I don't win. I really am not expecting to win either. And this isn't like an Oscar speech where the winner gets up there and acts all flustered and said she had no idea!! I honestly have no idea where I stand or how many women are even left! I guess we will see next week. Now cross your fingers, rain dance, chant, whatever it is you do for luck for me to post a big number this week :)
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
Tuesday's Scale Tip
It feels like I JUST did a scale tip a day ago! Today was another GREAT day!! I lost exactly 3lbs. My neighbor that I love says that you shouldn't say you "lost" the weight, you should say you gave it away, because we tend to look for things we lose. She's a genius. Anyway, that puts me at 31.2lbs down. Oh that feels so good! The measurements for this week, interestingly enough (to me, you probably don't care) stayed exactly the same. To the .25 inch!
We were installing a patio this weekend, after getting a wild hair and spur of the moment deciding we could do it while walking around Lowes, and it involved moving 20 (so far!) 16X16 HEAVY stones, ten 50lbs bags of sand, and two dozen smaller stepping stones. The large stones easily weigh 30lbs a piece, probably more. I kept thinking "Holy cow! I can't imagine doing this 30lbs heavier. I can't imagine how I did laundry 30lbs heavier!" With all the heavy lifting and extra working I was a little nervous that the scale wouldn't move a lot. My body tends to hang on to everything for a day or two after a hard workout session. Especially one that lasts more than a day! We still have about another 2 days worth of work to do, but I can already tell I'm going to like it a lot.
Tomorrow is my Dr.'s monthly weigh in. I'm pretty excited to see what he says about the progress. Last time I had lost about 15lbs on his scale (maybe 18 on mine) so hopefully there will be about 10 less on his scale this time (13 on mine)!
We were installing a patio this weekend, after getting a wild hair and spur of the moment deciding we could do it while walking around Lowes, and it involved moving 20 (so far!) 16X16 HEAVY stones, ten 50lbs bags of sand, and two dozen smaller stepping stones. The large stones easily weigh 30lbs a piece, probably more. I kept thinking "Holy cow! I can't imagine doing this 30lbs heavier. I can't imagine how I did laundry 30lbs heavier!" With all the heavy lifting and extra working I was a little nervous that the scale wouldn't move a lot. My body tends to hang on to everything for a day or two after a hard workout session. Especially one that lasts more than a day! We still have about another 2 days worth of work to do, but I can already tell I'm going to like it a lot.
Tomorrow is my Dr.'s monthly weigh in. I'm pretty excited to see what he says about the progress. Last time I had lost about 15lbs on his scale (maybe 18 on mine) so hopefully there will be about 10 less on his scale this time (13 on mine)!
Sunday, March 18, 2012
Thirty, Flirty, and Thriving!
Yesterday I woke up, took a deep breath and got on the scale. And then did a happy dance!! It told me that I was 30.2lbs down!! I couldn't have been happier. Until I got on the scale this morning and saw I was 30.8lbs down!!! Oh how I love to see those numbers drop. It makes my little heart skip a beat! (That could also be due to the 70lbs I have left...) I told myself at in January that if I lost 80lbs I would be thrilled, and if I hit 90 I can switch to maintain. Now that just seems silly! What's ten more pounds ;) I'm not an idiot. I know the last 10-20 can be the hardest. I'm now 3lbs away from being 1/3 of the way there. OH.SO.HAPPY!
I felt a little bad about the post about my mother, though every word of it I stand behind. She's a good mom and I do want her to be at her best, but you can't force someone healthy. As of today, I still don't think she's tracking seriously. My sister would have filled me in. I'm hoping to lose as much of 10 more pounds before my trip in April, and maybe then I can be more encouraging to her face to face. Maybe she'll see that I'm not messing around and that this is hard work, and sometimes it sucks, but it is possible! It IS possible! I'm 1/3 proof.
I felt a little bad about the post about my mother, though every word of it I stand behind. She's a good mom and I do want her to be at her best, but you can't force someone healthy. As of today, I still don't think she's tracking seriously. My sister would have filled me in. I'm hoping to lose as much of 10 more pounds before my trip in April, and maybe then I can be more encouraging to her face to face. Maybe she'll see that I'm not messing around and that this is hard work, and sometimes it sucks, but it is possible! It IS possible! I'm 1/3 proof.
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
Tuesday's Scale Tip
GLORIOUS! Glorious! GAH-lorious! I new it wasn't going to be a terrible day today, because of my weigh in on Sunday. I knew I would at least lose a pound. Ta-freaking-da, today I am giddy to report I'm down 3 lbs! 3 of them. T-H-R-E-E. After struggling with that terrible 1.5 for a while, it feel amazing to see 3. It also put me 1.8 lbs away from THIRTY lbs down! I can't believe I'm that close to the big 30. That's roughly 1/3 of the journey down. Hallelujah!
Today I told my sister about this fun (ha) new way of life. She is already doing well, and is now pregnant with her 3rd kid. I've been keeping it to myself for a number of reasons, but I had to tell her today so that she could help me when I go see her next month. I don't want her to be geared up to eat out every meal like we normally do when I visit! But really, when you're surrounded by amazing Mexican food, what are your options but to inhale as much of it as possible?! And I completely do. Hence the need to let her in. I even told her a little about the race this weekend. All these things I said I wouldn't do!
Mostly I had to tell her, because my brother in law lost his mind and introduced my mother to My Fitness Pal, and I happen to be on it. I am not friends with my sister or bil on there, but had to make her swear not to say anything. I told her "Please don't tell mom I'm on this. I didn't want to say anything, but I'm down about 30lbs." She was happy for me and understood. Our mother gets really hyped up about diets and fads (hello Atkins!) for about a week and makes me a little nuts. Because my sister is the smaller of the two of us, my mother turns to me to be her sounding board and accountability. That should be fine, except she isn't really ready to lose her weight. She says she is. She may even think she is. But in reality, she isn't. She's been a yo-yo dieter for as long as I can remember. She likes "cheat meals" which turn into "cheat days" and then the whole thing is shot to hell, and we'll be hearing about how she's 'got to do something to lose the weight'. Remember how I said I've done Weight Watchers, but wasn't really ready, which is why I would weigh in on Saturday morning so I didn't have to worry about eating healthy all weekend? Who do you think I learned that little trick from?? I'd like to think I could be a support to her and this could be a turning point, but I know her and I know she isn't ready to put in the work. She won't prove that she's ready until she stops caring about what other people think and starts working it out for herself. She'll just start doing it. It's what I've had to do. I have a fabulous neighbor who has tried for 2 years to guide me to health and I would always smile and listen, but never really applied it. Not until I was really ready. Not until now, when I know that this is how I want to live. I no longer think about a 'goal weight' in terms of "when I cross that line I can forget these habits and chow down on some serious chips and salsa for the rest of my life!" (Which has been the thought process until this time) Now I know I want to be a healthier person. I want to know that I am doing everything I can to keep myself in a good place, and that where ever the Lord leads me I will physically be able to go! I know that when (and if) we get pregnant with a 2nd baby, that I will have done everything in my power to have a healthy pregnancy. That if the next pregnancy ends in miscarriage again, that there will be no doubt that I did everything I could do. But I digress... In a nutshell, my mom just isn't at that point yet. And I do not have the will power for both of us.
Today I told my sister about this fun (ha) new way of life. She is already doing well, and is now pregnant with her 3rd kid. I've been keeping it to myself for a number of reasons, but I had to tell her today so that she could help me when I go see her next month. I don't want her to be geared up to eat out every meal like we normally do when I visit! But really, when you're surrounded by amazing Mexican food, what are your options but to inhale as much of it as possible?! And I completely do. Hence the need to let her in. I even told her a little about the race this weekend. All these things I said I wouldn't do!
Mostly I had to tell her, because my brother in law lost his mind and introduced my mother to My Fitness Pal, and I happen to be on it. I am not friends with my sister or bil on there, but had to make her swear not to say anything. I told her "Please don't tell mom I'm on this. I didn't want to say anything, but I'm down about 30lbs." She was happy for me and understood. Our mother gets really hyped up about diets and fads (hello Atkins!) for about a week and makes me a little nuts. Because my sister is the smaller of the two of us, my mother turns to me to be her sounding board and accountability. That should be fine, except she isn't really ready to lose her weight. She says she is. She may even think she is. But in reality, she isn't. She's been a yo-yo dieter for as long as I can remember. She likes "cheat meals" which turn into "cheat days" and then the whole thing is shot to hell, and we'll be hearing about how she's 'got to do something to lose the weight'. Remember how I said I've done Weight Watchers, but wasn't really ready, which is why I would weigh in on Saturday morning so I didn't have to worry about eating healthy all weekend? Who do you think I learned that little trick from?? I'd like to think I could be a support to her and this could be a turning point, but I know her and I know she isn't ready to put in the work. She won't prove that she's ready until she stops caring about what other people think and starts working it out for herself. She'll just start doing it. It's what I've had to do. I have a fabulous neighbor who has tried for 2 years to guide me to health and I would always smile and listen, but never really applied it. Not until I was really ready. Not until now, when I know that this is how I want to live. I no longer think about a 'goal weight' in terms of "when I cross that line I can forget these habits and chow down on some serious chips and salsa for the rest of my life!" (Which has been the thought process until this time) Now I know I want to be a healthier person. I want to know that I am doing everything I can to keep myself in a good place, and that where ever the Lord leads me I will physically be able to go! I know that when (and if) we get pregnant with a 2nd baby, that I will have done everything in my power to have a healthy pregnancy. That if the next pregnancy ends in miscarriage again, that there will be no doubt that I did everything I could do. But I digress... In a nutshell, my mom just isn't at that point yet. And I do not have the will power for both of us.
Sunday, March 11, 2012
Broken Vows...
I was stressing so much over that stupid 1.5 lbs that I decided I would take a break from the scale. I said ONLY Monday and Tuesday. Wednesday was difficult to keep, Thursday and Friday were fine. Saturday we were up so early for the race (!) that it was no big deal, and then today... I broke my vow. I decided I didn't want to be surprised (aka, disappointed!) with the scale at the gym tomorrow. I wanted to have a good idea what it should say, so I stepped on mine one day early. I was happy with the results, and I was happy with going 4 out of 5 days so win/win.
Saturday was my first 5K. It was for a domestic violence home in a nearby town and there were about 300 racers. My ENTIRE goal was to finish. I told myself for a week "Don't be competitive. Just finish." Then I got there and thought "Just don't come in last. You WILL NOT come in last at this!" Because we had our son in the jogging stroller we had to start at the very back. When the race started the obvious winners sprinted away like it was nothing! I walked most of the first mile pushing the kid with the husband lightly jogging beside me trying to keep himself warm. Not long before mile 2 I decided to go ahead and kick it up a notch. From there I ran a bit of each mile and every time there was a downhill :). I would focus on one person about 3 people away, and when it came time to run I would do my best to pass them. Towards the end there was a lady walking with walking poles like Phil Dunphey on Modern Family, and I just knew I couldn't finish behind her! (Yes, that's terrible. Don't judge me.) And an older couple also pushing a stroller that kept pacing me. The older couple decided to go ahead and kick my butt right at the end, but I'm happy to announce that the pole walker and about 12 other people that would have finished in front of me were eating my dust. Of course that means they were walking at a nice brisk stroll, and I was wheezing uncontrollably past them. My guess is that there were 25 people that finished after me! Goal met.
There's a race that we are considering for this weekend for Ronald McDonald House, which I love, but I don't know if it will happen yet.
Saturday was my first 5K. It was for a domestic violence home in a nearby town and there were about 300 racers. My ENTIRE goal was to finish. I told myself for a week "Don't be competitive. Just finish." Then I got there and thought "Just don't come in last. You WILL NOT come in last at this!" Because we had our son in the jogging stroller we had to start at the very back. When the race started the obvious winners sprinted away like it was nothing! I walked most of the first mile pushing the kid with the husband lightly jogging beside me trying to keep himself warm. Not long before mile 2 I decided to go ahead and kick it up a notch. From there I ran a bit of each mile and every time there was a downhill :). I would focus on one person about 3 people away, and when it came time to run I would do my best to pass them. Towards the end there was a lady walking with walking poles like Phil Dunphey on Modern Family, and I just knew I couldn't finish behind her! (Yes, that's terrible. Don't judge me.) And an older couple also pushing a stroller that kept pacing me. The older couple decided to go ahead and kick my butt right at the end, but I'm happy to announce that the pole walker and about 12 other people that would have finished in front of me were eating my dust. Of course that means they were walking at a nice brisk stroll, and I was wheezing uncontrollably past them. My guess is that there were 25 people that finished after me! Goal met.
There's a race that we are considering for this weekend for Ronald McDonald House, which I love, but I don't know if it will happen yet.
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
Tuesday's Scale Tip
It was dreadful. I am down a pound this week. Just one. I know that's better than nothing, but it definitely isn't as good as the 2.6 I NEEDED! I'm mostly aggravated with myself. I had to ask myself how much I want this today. It's easy to be chipper about 'lifestyle changes' when you are dropping big numbers every week, but it isn't so glamorous when the minor losses, or friggin' plateaus creep in. But I'll stick it out. I do REALLY want this.
Today we went to church, and I forgot my usual apple snack, but lucked out when the girl in charge of snacks brought in grapes along with the lick-the-box cinnamon buns. I'm sure I looked the fool measuring out a cups worth of grapes in my palm. Real mad scientist style. But I didn't want to cheat! For lunch I had the char-grilled chicken salad and a pack of sunflower seeds at CFA (our second home) and then swung by several stores before heading to pick up Rob. Of course while I waited for him I drove through Starbucks (there are only like 3 drive thru Starbucks here and it makes me ridiculously happy when I get to go to one! It sucks having to actually GET OUT OF MY CAR!) and picked up a java light with no whip. While ordering the menu board showed off their new red velvet truffle cake pop, which led me to thinking about the rocky road cake pop and all of it's chocolatey, nutty, marshmallowy goodness. I was on the verge of ordering one. Like it was going to be the next word out of my mouth kind of verge, when I thought "Do you want this bad enough to have to run for it? Will it taste THAT good?" The answer was no, and I left with just my drink. That has to show some growth, right?! If you say no, then you obviously have never had one and therefore do not understand. And I feel a little bad for you. Not bad enough to ever share MY cake pop though!
Today we went to church, and I forgot my usual apple snack, but lucked out when the girl in charge of snacks brought in grapes along with the lick-the-box cinnamon buns. I'm sure I looked the fool measuring out a cups worth of grapes in my palm. Real mad scientist style. But I didn't want to cheat! For lunch I had the char-grilled chicken salad and a pack of sunflower seeds at CFA (our second home) and then swung by several stores before heading to pick up Rob. Of course while I waited for him I drove through Starbucks (there are only like 3 drive thru Starbucks here and it makes me ridiculously happy when I get to go to one! It sucks having to actually GET OUT OF MY CAR!) and picked up a java light with no whip. While ordering the menu board showed off their new red velvet truffle cake pop, which led me to thinking about the rocky road cake pop and all of it's chocolatey, nutty, marshmallowy goodness. I was on the verge of ordering one. Like it was going to be the next word out of my mouth kind of verge, when I thought "Do you want this bad enough to have to run for it? Will it taste THAT good?" The answer was no, and I left with just my drink. That has to show some growth, right?! If you say no, then you obviously have never had one and therefore do not understand. And I feel a little bad for you. Not bad enough to ever share MY cake pop though!
Monday, March 5, 2012
Fingers Crossed
Tomorrow is a dreaded weigh in day and I am dreading it. It's going to be dreadful. Are you seeing a common thread?? In reality, it shouldn't be bad. I'm betting I will have lost very, very little or gained nothing. I haven't gone over at all this week, and even worked out over the weekend, but I've been fighting 1.5 lbs for 9 days and would love to see it and about 3 of it's friends move along! My ultimate goal will to just not be depressed if it doesn't say what I want.
I do think I'm going to force myself to step away from the scales, with the exception of Mondays at the gym for the Biggest Loser contest and Tuesdays for my scale tip, for the month of March. I'm slightly obsessed with my love/hate relationship with the scale, and I think it would do both of us some good to get some distance. Absence makes the heart grow fonder, right? Maybe it will miss me a lot and play nice when I return to everyday (sometimes multiple times a day) use. I've used it everyday for two months now and keep it as my barometer for how I did each day. I've thought it kept me accountable for what I ate the day before, but right now it's just being a pain in my butt. Which expands and contracts about 1.5 lbs daily...
I do think I'm going to force myself to step away from the scales, with the exception of Mondays at the gym for the Biggest Loser contest and Tuesdays for my scale tip, for the month of March. I'm slightly obsessed with my love/hate relationship with the scale, and I think it would do both of us some good to get some distance. Absence makes the heart grow fonder, right? Maybe it will miss me a lot and play nice when I return to everyday (sometimes multiple times a day) use. I've used it everyday for two months now and keep it as my barometer for how I did each day. I've thought it kept me accountable for what I ate the day before, but right now it's just being a pain in my butt. Which expands and contracts about 1.5 lbs daily...
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