Must Stop...

Eating like I'm still on vacation!! I really think I did pretty well in Texas, but I did loosen the reigns a bit. Now it's time to pull them back in and I'm having trouble with it. On Saturday we had couples date night at our house, where 4 couples get together for dinner and a movie or game. This month's theme was Home Town Favorites, so we all had to dress like the stereotypical person from our hood, and bring a dish that represents it. Um, YUM! I made steak and corn out on the grill (Hello, Texas!) and boiled baby gold potatoes. So good! Then I made jalapeno poppers and crosintini with cheese spread AND chips and salsa. Holy. Moly. I ate and ate and ate. Then for dinner last night I took the left over steak and corn and made asparagus and salad. Not terrible, right? Except that I washed that down with a big ol' margarita and three mini Twix. I forgot how much I LOVE Twix. It's a ridiculous amount.
Long story short, I have GOT to get back on the wagon before I get run over by it.

The Great State

I landed last night close to 9:30 after a week in the great state of Texas! It was a good visit with a bunch of people I love, and still there were people I love that I couldn't squeeze into the schedule. I always hate when that happens! It feels like the first 2-3 days kinda drag and then everything goes by so quickly. Next time BA, it's me, you, and a basket of sopapillas. I ate EVERY single thing I wanted. Some of it twice. I drank four margaritas at three different meals. I only worked out 3 times. You know what? It was GREAT! I was careful on days that I knew were going to be heavy lunch or dinner days and would go easy on the other two meals. I don't really snack ever at my mom's house so that isn't a big issue, and I only had two Starbucks the entire week (withdrawals!!). I did less mileage with the three workouts than I do here, but it aggravated my knee terribly so I don't mind that at all! Basically, I just lived it up while I was there, but in moderation.
And this morning I was only up .6 :)

Tuesday's Scale Tip

Will be on Wednesday this week. I don't know what's happening with me, but I'm actually up for the first time in 14 weeks!! I have decided to wait until tomorrow and see if it's a water weight/bloat issue. Or maybe I'm just praying it is! Either way, a record will not be made about this week until tomorrow.

Run!!!

This morning was a lovely Easter morning around here, and the one thing I asked for was a family walk this morning. Unfortunately, my boys couldn't get their acts together and I ended up going off on my own in a huff. It wasn't a shining moment for any of us. I walked the way I like to go, but decided I was going to be cutting it close on time for us to get to our friends house to celebrate the day, so I turned on the next road and decided to run the length of it. I did this the other night when we had to cut our walk short, but wanted to keep my burned calories high and hubs told me it was .7 miles. I was pretty happy with that! .7 miles without stopping was quite the feat for someone who barely runs. This morning I decided I would do the same thing, but when I got to the the road that signifies I'm almost done I saw the boys playing in a field and decided I would try to run down that road and back. When I got close to the end of that the boys were sitting on a tree stump cheering me on, and I decided to go ahead and finish the initial .7. I didn't feel that out of breath, I didn't think I would throw up, and my legs weren't aching. When I got back to the house I Googled the distance and saw that it was 1.1 miles!!! WITHOUT STOPPING! Holy bunny eggs. You have no idea how excited I was. I haven't ran a mile straight in over a decade. I felt on top of the world!
On a side note in the same vein, I realized a couple of days ago that things were finally starting to move in the right direction. I know that sounds dumb 35lbs down. I got out of the shower and for the first time in YEARS I wrapped the towel all the way around me and there was zero gapage! I even went downstairs to show hubs! If push came to shove I could answer the door in a towel (not that it would ever happen!) and not be showing anything inappropriate. For the most part.

Workout Shmurkout

Or better known as: I skipped a long walk yesterday and ended up going over my calories for a Quaker chocolate chip granola bar! I had about 8 million and 5 things to do yesterday so I opted not to work out at all. So dumb. I could easily have done the dance game for half an hour, but I chose to be lazy! On Livestrong if you go over your calories you get an annoying, and slightly panic inducing, red exclamation mark next to your numbers. I haven't seen that since February with all of the hubs birthday celebrations! I thought about that last night and decided I wouldn't beat myself up over it. It means I've gone 6 weeks without over indulging and that is a big accomplishment.
Secret: I still fantasize about buying a family size bag of chips and not stopping until I hit bottom in one sitting on a daily basis. I am trying to tell myself to hold off until Cinco de Mayo and the party we're having. For that ONE day I'm going to go a little chips and salsa crazy! I make a really yummy hot sauce. Like for real. I'm not sure I even care if that sounds braggy. It's delicious and I could easily eat it for a days worth of meals. And of course that is the plan! iOle!

Tuesday's Scale Tip

This morning was a GOOD one! I dropped 3.2 this week for a grand total of 35.4 since January 3rd. I really was discouraged in January when I was so heavy reading weight loss stories and how it took them what seemed (to me) like months and months to lose 35, 40, 60, 80, etc. There were so many thoughts about "Why bother?!" "Will I be able to do this for months and months??" and most depressing "What if I get too discouraged because I don't drop that fast and put it back on..." In 13 weeks I have lost 35 lbs! My goal when I sat down with my Dr. was 50 by the end of May. I asked him "Do you think that's possible?" and he said, and I quote, "Hell yeah." He could see that I was determined, and I could feel it.
The other thing I feel is eater's regret! Last night I went to our local mall to use a Bath & Body Works gift card my dad gave me for Christmas. I used to work for B&BW so I'm pretty much burnt out for life, but I do like candles so I figured I would use it on that. NEGATIVE. I like soft vanilla candles or cinnamon candles, and all that was on their shelves were REALLY over powering things like Coconut Water and Margarita Tangerine or something to that effect. Needless to say I left there empty handed and with a slight head ache! So when I got back to the car where the boys were waiting it was already 6:15 and we decided to eat around there instead of coming home. The only restaurants around there are Green Turtle and Don Pablos (and a new Olive Garden I forgot about!) so we went to DP. I legitimately tried to find the thing with the least amount of calories, because I knew I would eat chips and hot sauce. Flautas where the least caloric thing next to tortilla soup. Are you kidding me?!?! Everything was SO heavy in calories. I spent the rest of the evening in pain and carried it with me through to this morning. We will definitely be avoiding that place (at all cost!) for a long time. Even as I sit here now my stomach is in knots. And it wasn't even that good! Damn you eater's regret!!